ok since nobody cares i will post this to get off my chest

my life these past few years has been crap

well it all started to remind me about this when i thought i meet the girl who i really loved but turns out after being rejected and then she dates a guy like 2 hours after i asked her out then i started to just look at life
-we were poor
- i have nobody i can love
- my family is the only important thing i have
- my friends sometimes i feel like they don't care
- i need someone to love but yet im just not wanted
- i wish i was dead
ever since my mom died things gradually started go downhill
1. our grandparents sued us cleaned all of our money and we had to move to a one bedroom apartment with another family that i don't know
2. i have been like hell but i picked some girls in middle school but i just did not like them
3. then comes high school i meet this one girl who i never thought of a girl before she literally made my life go upside down whenever i saw her i would always get happy she just made my day it thought was this LOVE? then i ask her out then as i said being rejected and i didnt mind that cause i was still gonna hang out with her but then she dates a guy like 2 hours after i asked her out right when she told me she wasn't ready to go out and i was "like a brother" to her WTF WHY DO THIS?! that made me get really just really mad this made me delete Facebook i started just i actually cried i never cried since my mom died i thought i lost all my tears that day and yet when this girl did this to me i cried and i cried now you can all call me a pussy i don't give a **** call me what you want I DON'T CARE IT HURT AND U CAN GO BURN IN HELL IF YOU DO then i just started thinking if we were put on this earth for happiness WERE IS IT TELL ME I SEE PEOPLE WHO ARE HOMELESS EXPLAIN THAT TO ME GOD?! IM STARTING TO DOUBT U EVEN EXIST "everything happens for a reson" reason can GTFO i want happiness we all deserve it but WHY JUST WHY

i don't care what you guys say i need to get this off my chest and what a perfect place then here now go whine to me and i might actually get frustrated enough to forget about this go ahead MAKE MY DAY

im done with life im just done i will not chase after any one i will not talk to anyone unless spoken to i am DONE

Firstly, that's pretty rough considering I've lost some people very close to me and the fact my mother is in the wheel chair ._. so I'm sorry to hear about your mom.
Secondly, relationships are shiet, don't bother with them. I don't bother with them anymore, it's been nearly a year as a matter of fact since I've dated someone, and if your friends don't care, why are they even your friends? Friends are supposed to care and look out for you, although I have had my fair share of back stabbing "friends". As for your grand parents, they sound wonderful. Suing their own family ¬-¬, and a 1 bedroom apartment? Jeez..that would probably make my tiny arse 3 bedroom apartment look like a freakin mansion for you. Aside for the cracked tile in the bathroom, maybe. You weren't acting like this when we were talking on steam...which gives me the guess, you haven't really told anyone until now how miserable you are ._.

Well. Don't really know what to say. Aside from, things have to get worse before they get better.

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Firstly, that's pretty rough considering I've lost some people very close to me and the fact my mother is in the wheel chair ._. so I'm sorry to hear about your mom.
Secondly, relationships are shiet, don't bother with them. I don't bother with them anymore, it's been nearly a year as a matter of fact since I've dated someone, and if your friends don't care, why are they even your friends? Friends are supposed to care and look out for you, although I have had my fair share of back stabbing "friends". As for your grand parents, they sound wonderful. Suing their own family ¬-¬, and a 1 bedroom apartment? Jeez..that would probably make my tiny arse 3 bedroom apartment look like a freakin mansion for you. Aside for the cracked tile in the bathroom, maybe. You weren't acting like this when we were talking on steam...which gives me the guess, you haven't really told anyone until now how miserable you are ._.

Well. Don't really know what to say. Aside from, things have to get worse before they get better.

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i havent told ANYONE about this i just shove it inside but i finally burst i cant take it im done just done like i said
even though i still love her i cant see why im never gonna be with her and yet i still love her...i cant stop thinking about her she is like...she just i can't explain it...
my friends care i just..dont know if they DO care you know?

Wow. You really had it rough. Good on yer maite. I feel sad for the homeless people who don't have anything and I have loads of stuff like Food and Water and a place to live. Plus, it sometimes isn't even their fault. I still don't understand WHY your grandparents would sue their children. And as loads of people say : Life's a *****.

This is why I dont actively look to date someone.
The only relationships I had, the girl asked me, and I ended the relationship in the end.

This is why I don't build strong connections with people. It's builds vulnerability and if something happens it would get emotional. If I like someone, I like them, I wouldn't "love" because it's too strong of a connection with a person. And being vulnerable is just too risky.

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The girl asked me

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Lucky. :glare:


Angel, first off, God is not to blame for this. If God had his hand in us all the time, from where comes sin? If you want to be mad, blame someone who's caused you this grief, like your grandparents, who were too immature to come to a peaceful conclusion, or the girl. But an even better solution is to relax. Your choices at this point are very limited, but give it a few years. Eventually, you'll have tons of ways to go and the freedom to go about your will. So cheer up! If times can't get worse, they can only get better. Anyone can recover from anything, eventually, and at the top of the ravine lies a stream of happiness.

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Originally Posted by ShadowHaunter

The girl asked me

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Lucky. :glare:


Angel, first off, God is not to blame for this. If God had his hand in us all the time, from where comes sin? If you want to be mad, blame someone who's caused you this grief, like your grandparents, who were too immature to come to a peaceful conclusion, or the girl. But an even better solution is to relax. Your choices at this point are very limited, but give it a few years. Eventually, you'll have tons of ways to go and the freedom to go about your will. So cheer up! If times can't get worse, they can only get better. Anyone can recover from anything, eventually, and at the top of the ravine lies a stream of happiness.

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i doubt it
this time its for real i literally feel like there's a hole in my chest like if something was ripped out without me knowing
BUT
i had the most fantastic dream like yesterday after sleeping....i...i had ....it was un-describable i actually looked happy and i was with HER too we were like having a picnic at a park with our family its like saying "dont lose hope" but....is happiness really a pursuit?

No,that was just a dream. Nothing special.

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No,that was just a dream. Nothing special.

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an awesome dream <3